Can the Ethiopian Change his skin
or the leopard its spots?
Neither can you do good
who are accustomed to doing evil.
-Jeremiah 13:23
Why turn from going against the Lord now? The longer you wait the harder it will be, and eventually you will reach the point of the people of Judah being unable to genuinely turn towards God and be lost from His grace. Let pride speak to your heart and tell you that you are unique, let truth tell you that God killed and displaced his chosen people for reaching a point past repentance. In His eyes there are no excuses (what they were taught by their leaders/parents) just the reality of his love and what it will take to bring His people back into an intimate relationship with Himself.